Day 101

101 days in the NICU! I asked the doctors if I got a prize for making it to 100 days. They just laughed at me.
We were so incredibly blessed to be able to have both of our babies come home on the same day.
I don't even know how I would of been able to have one baby home, and one at the hospital. luckily I didn't have to find out.

We were also really lucky to be able to bring them home at all so soon. They were not really eating all of their food yet. However, they let us take the kids home on their NG tubes. So that meant we had to learn how to put the tubes down there little noses, and feed them the remaining food that they cannot take orally.

Wilson HATES his tube. The night before we took him home, he pulled his tube out 3 times. It took me a few times to get the tube in the right place, but its really quite easy (besides the horrible screaming coming from your baby in the process.) The goal is to have them eating their food within a month.

It was a bitter sweet day taking them home. We were able to meet so many wonderful people in the NICU.There is no way I could ever repay them for taking care of my sweet babies. I would not even have them if it was not for the great staff.

Being home is wonderful. Seeing my cute babies in their cribs sleeping, or playing is the greatest feeling in the world. My Heavenly Father has blessed me so much this year. For so long I have felt almost useless. Not being able to have children was like having no purpose for me. I felt in a total slump, like my life was not going to move forward. I know its not true, and that if I was not able to have children in the end, their is still purpose. But I can't deny that is how I felt. I have never felt so fulfilled as I do having my babies.

People have been telling me to get ready to have no more time for myself, and this and that, and basically my life will never be the same. You know what I am glad. I am ready for my life to change. I am ready to have no privacy, having no time to shower, or brush my teeth, smelling like sour milk, and being sleep deprived. If that's what has to happen to have this little ones in my life then bring it on. I have never been more ready.